Insomnia

Hello Internet,

Insomnia is apparently a downfall for Mr. Koch. This is day two of a endless cycle of nights, I'm sure, where the proverbial sandman fails to execute his job properly. If any of you reading this have read my facebook page you are in the know for why I am here. For those that haven't I will fill you in. Working my swing shifts as a retail manager have proven to be a foe I have yet to master. After 5+ years of having to deal with random hours in which I work one would assume that I would have become accustomed to the vast variety. For those of you that have worked or are working in retail I'm sure you can share my sentiments.

Its interesting how one person could be at work busting their behind all day taking care of business and yet still seems to be wide awake when its time to sleep. No matter what the day has had in store for me or the amount of tasks or customers I help in one day I still seem to be wide awake when that crucial time arrives. Sometimes I wonder why I have this insomnia. Other times it allows to me reflect on where I am at in life. Where I am heading and where I hope to be one day.

To ponder of the meaning of life has been a topic on my brain for the past few days. It is not yet clear as to why I feel the need to ponder such a undefinable subject and yet my brain continues. It has gone over endless possibilities as for why we are here. Why are we as humans, the only known, here on this huge planet. I have considered that maybe the meaning is to ascertain the most money, the fancies cars, the best looking wife, and yet I disagree with that definition. Material items don't define people, if you feel that way I truly feel sorry for you. I can understand how you might feel that having material items makes you the best strictly due to the world today as we know it. America today has shown to us that we must have the best of everything, The best hair, the best car, the most money, the hottest wife, the biggest house, the most toys I find this to be very shallow and false advertising. Money doesn't buy happiness, never has and never will. Anyways, I digress.


After two solid nights of insomnia and since my brain has performed at maximum functionality for the past 48 hours I feel I have found the answer. The meaning of life by definition is to find the meaning of life. Redundant I am aware, but none the less this is still the answer is it not? Not one person in this world is going to have the answer.... Ever.... thus this would be the correct solution to the question. Now one might state that I simply chose a cop out, to no longer to attempt to solve the question. On the average I would agree with you, however keep in mind my brain has been going non stop for 48 hours. The hunt or exploration for the true meaning of life cannot be answered. Only to take every opportunity, every chance you can, to meet new people, develop new relationships, do new things, try something you have never done before. This seems to be the only logical or rational answer to the question.

I need more time to think..... I will continue this soon.....